Have you ever?

Have you ever at a point of your life that you completely lost and you think you made all the mistakes in your life? I had the exact feeling this morning when I woke up. Not to mention that I just had a panic attack due to multiple stress. I really had an emotional weekend which wasn't really my type of weekend. For the past years, I want my life to be nothing but SANE so I dont really like the whole emotion rollercoaster bull shit.

But then I got it this previous weekend. All the symptoms show: short of breathe, barely movable, nearly faint, limping, throwing up. It's just bad! I think I scared E. Bass alot! Sorry, baby! So here comes the ultimate question- What triggers it? What happened?
Overwhelming STRESS. From what? work is really stressed, our relationship is tense and mostly due to my responses. Then we decided to take a long break, which hopefully will be beneficial for both of us.

I know we both need the time to manage ourselves, I just chose the extreme way to deal with it but it doesn't mean it's the end. I think we both should stop using other people's standards to measure what's between us, especially me. I got this inspiration email from nana the other day, I am so amazed how mature this email thread is. So I decided to steal it so I can use it for my momentum！

Health:

1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar. Well I can only promise the first part
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5 . Make time to pray. Yes meditation is also important
6. Play more games. Baby laughed at me for not knowing how to play monopoly
7. Read more books than you did in 2009. That I can definitely conquer!
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others . You have no idea what their journey is all about. True
12. Don't have negative thoughts for things you cannot control . Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment. Very True
13. Don't over do, keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. Learning
15. Don't waste your precious energy on people that put you down and gossip
16 . Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time . You already have all you need. True
18. Forget issues of the past . Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness. Learning
19. Life is too short to waste time hating or being angry at anyone . Don't hate others and be angry Nod Nod
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more .
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...

Society:
25. Call your family often. I think this should be less.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything. Learning
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6 .
29. Try to make at least two people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business. Learning
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch. Very TRUE! Sorry baby but you are the best!

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. DOing it
34. GOD heals everything. Time heals too.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change ..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. DOing it cause showing up is already half the success
37. The best is yet to come .. is COMING
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

I am me, I am Ariel!